Cinnamonhuskies:

Here it is late October and they still havent picked up my goats yet!

Is there any chance that he could be hoping that you might be able to pull it out & keep them?  Or that he can't bring himself to come & take your girls from you? Maybe he just finds it hard to pysically take them from you.

My babies are gone.

They were loaded up into a livestock trailer and taken away tonight. I know it's for the best. i know the couple personally...they have a baby and are doing things 'the hard way'...being as self sufficient as possible, farming, raising animals, baking bread in a wood stove....I know they appreciate them. I can see dh and I in them....what we used to be like....and I don't know what has happened to that now.

I'm sorry i havent been able to be on DS forums lately between flu bugs and depression over losing my goats, I just have not felt chatty. I really didn't think Id be this upset over it, but when they left tonight I just went to pieces.

I am sorry you lost your babies!  I hope you are feeling better soon!

Cinnamonhuskies:

I really didn't think Id be this upset over it, but when they left tonight I just went to pieces.

You are experiencing life and lifestyle changes. Having the goats picked up is a physical sign of this and probably makes you very aware of how different things are now. Change is hard to deal with.

  I'm so sorry about all of the changes.  Take care of yourself.

Cinnamonhuskies:

My babies are gone.

They were loaded up into a livestock trailer and taken away tonight. I know it's for the best. i know the couple personally...they have a baby and are doing things 'the hard way'...being as self sufficient as possible, farming, raising animals, baking bread in a wood stove....I know they appreciate them. I can see dh and I in them....what we used to be like....and I don't know what has happened to that now.

I'm sorry i havent been able to be on DS forums lately between flu bugs and depression over losing my goats, I just have not felt chatty. I really didn't think Id be this upset over it, but when they left tonight I just went to pieces.

It's not just that your babies are gone, it's dealing with the death of a dream.  You are grieving the loss of your way of life & that will take time.  You can take comfort in having found a good home for them, where the goats will be properly valued & well treated.  

Our hearts are with you, & you are not alone.

Dh says wait 5 or 10 years when boys are adults and possibly family men....they'll be yearning for animals again to raise their children with.

Or maybe our income level will go back up in a few years where I could afford to keep a couple even for pets.

It doesnt make it any easier going out to an empty barn and pens.

We still have 2 breeding rabbits and about 13-15 old chickens. At least its something. I feel myself quickly losing purpose.

Michelle I am sorry about the loss of the goats  

this economy is nuts not like anything no one knows what to do

Cinnamonhuskies:

It doesnt make it any easier going out to an empty barn and pens.

We still have 2 breeding rabbits and about 13-15 old chickens. At least its something. I feel myself quickly losing purpose.

When our Audri colicked & had to be put down, I couldn't go back to the stable for over 6 months.  I needed more manure for the garden, & I knew I was welcome to come & take as much as I needed, but I just couldn't do it.  I had spent a lot of time feeling badly that we hadn't been able to have Audri at home, that we had to board her, but it turned out to be a blessing for me not to have to look at an empty stall.  I can go out to the stable now, but it took over 6 months for me.

For me, it would be helpful to clean the barn & pens, & have them ready to receive any future animals, but it takes more than a little time to get to that place, & her barn & pen don't belong to me.  They were an important part of your life & your dreams, & they deserve to be properly grieved, so let yourself take that time.

I know you are a deeply spiritual person, & it took some time for me to realize that the Lord knows what is best for me, even if it doesn't feel comfortable at the time, & even if it really hurts for quite a while.  I had to think through again what my purpose in life really was - - to return with honor to my Heavenly Father. 

zohnerfarms:

It's not just that your babies are gone, it's dealing with the death of a dream.  You are grieving the loss of your way of life & that will take time.  You can take comfort in having found a good home for them, where the goats will be properly valued & well treated.  

Our hearts are with you, & you are not alone.