I have been thru many life altering changes in the last 6 years...the kind when you think it cant get anyworse it does. I look back and as my mother says...what doesn' kill you will make you stronger.
May 2005 was the worst year for me, so I thought, until 2011 rolled around that the hits just kept on coming. In May 2005, I found out that for 5 years my daughter had kept had kept it a secret that my son had molested her...5 years earlier. Its devastating enough to find out your child has been molested by a stranger, but there are no words to describle when it is one of your own children. In Sept. 2005 she had her first suicide attemp. In Nov 2005 I was diagnosed with stage 2 colon cancer and went through 6 months of chemo. In Feb. 2006 while I was in month 2 of chemo, she attempted suicide again. This time she was hospitalized for a week. In May 2006 I lost my job in the middle of chemo and with the job loss went my medical benifits. 5 months into chemo and no medical benifits is something no one should go thru.
In Feb. 2011 I was laid off from my job of 11 years. In Aug. of 2011, I found out the man I was living with for 23 years, had been living with another woman for 18 of those 23 years. I was so beyond devastated that I could not see the light and didnt care if I ever did, thus I had 2 hospitalizations in 2 months for 2 weeks each time for suicidal thoughts, as my world had shattered into grains of sand and I just didnt have strength to attempt to pick up the pieces. I am a survivor which with each life altering change....I have come out so much stronger.