It looks like half of my income/career is about to disappear. For the past few years, half of my income has come from the corporate training business that I own, and half has come from teaching at the local community college. The community college gig has been my rock, with the training business fluctuating in terms of income and busy-ness. Well, it looks like the teaching thing might not happen this semester -- which means half of my income will be gone, and I'll need to make up for it somehow. I will know definitely on Wednesday, but the enrollment is really really low, and the Dean has been leading me to believe that the classes won't run.
At first, I figured it would all work out (meaning enrollment would increase, and things would just keep trucking along), but now that I'm really faced with the prospect of that part of my professional life ending, I'm starting to panic a bit. I hope to get to the point of explaining "why I like failure" like Gary says he does in his post. I know things will work out one way or another, but right now it's slightly nerve-wracking to think that I need to change all my plans and figure out a way (in the middle of this big recession) to make up that income.... I don't like failure yet.
